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[JenArbo0603]

This board is slow. Real slow. Okay, it's practically non-existant.  But at least I have somewhere to "talk" things out.

DH and I have one son, Nolan, who is now 16 months old.  My gosh, where did that time go?  Anyway, we have such a hard time getting pregnant.  With help from a specialist we were able to conceive and now we have our precious son.  I feel pressured to TTC #2 now because my body seems to actually be working.  Well....It felt that way in the beginning, once AF came back.  But now, 16 moths later, I'm wondering if my body went back to being broken again. 

And then I have to be completely honest with myself and tell myself, "You aren't doing this whole heartedly!!!"  I have to scream that to myself.  Because I'm not.  When it's ovulation time, I always find an excuse to NOT have sex with DH.  I think I'm scared.  Correction.....I KNOW THAT I'M SCARED.  What am I thinking?  I can't handle a toddler and a newborn! 

What am I saying? Nolan would be 2, most likely a bit older....okay, the way things are going, a lot older.  I can handle it.  What really scares me is having another miscarriage.  I just don't know if I can handle that.  I've been around here a long time and I know many brave women that have suffered multiple losses and yet they still try.  They suffer through so much and yet they keep on trekking.  And here I am, freaking out because of a "maybe". 

Wow.  That felt really good to get that out there. To actually "say" what my heart has been feeling for so very long.

Feel free to respond; otherwise, if you just want to lurk and see what my crazy self is up to and has to say about all of this, feel free to read.  I'll try to post as much as I can.

[russell12170]

Hey Jen,
Wow, hang in there girl.  Of course you're afraid of another loss.  And that's ok.  No matter if you've suffered one loss or many, it's still the most diffcult thing most of us have been through.  It's completely understandable for you to be afraid.  At least you've faced what you're afraid of and that's the first step in conquering it. 
How are things going so far?  I see you just started this month so probably not much to report.
I will most likely be joining you here.  I've had so much time to think about which way I'm going to go and I just can't completely come to terms with getting pregnant again.  I want to but I have physical ailments that have me on the fence.  Just pain.  Nothing fertitily wise.  I know if I do this it is going to be hard.  But also worth it.  So by the end of this day, I need to decide if I am going to continue the pill or not.  I think I'm just going to go for it.  I'll let you know what I decided.
Lots of prayers for you.
Ruth

[TM]

Hello Ladies, Glad to hear about you both and that you are both well.

Ruth-sorry to hear about your injury and good luck with your decision as to whether or not to TTC again. Such a roller coaster ride. I know you will figure it out. How is you husband?? Is he home?? God bless your whole family.

Jennifer, Good Luck with TTC as well. Such an emotional time. Don't be discouraged by the mixed feelings about it. I think it is perfectly natural. In some ways it is so hard for me to imagine another child in the mix and then I also can't imagine Jenna growing up without brothers and sisters. It is such a mixed bag for me. I definitely want more kids but we will have to wait and see what is in store for us. I will pray for your family too.

It makes me smile to hear updates from you ladies and kind of shocks me to think that it was 2 years ago we were all on this board pregnant. Perhaps before long we could all be back and pregnant again.

Teresa

[JenArbo0603]

Hey ladies. It's been a really long time since I posted here.  I was laid off from my job in early January and I'm still at home with Nolan.  It has been such a wonderful blessing because I've been able to watch him grow physically, emotionally and educationally.  His speech is growing and he's learning new words and phrases all of the time.  We are working on his ABC's and counting. He loves when I sing to him (at least someone does!)

I cannot believe that in exactly 1 week Nolan will be 2 years old. Jeez. Where has the time gone?!

We haven't had luck TTC #2.  It's been a rough road and even though I've tried to not pressure myself, I'm sure I do.  We are on our 3rd month of Clomid and this is my second month of combining it with oral Prometrium.  Last month my progesterone level was sky high at 28.5 and, even though I tried not to do it, I got my hopes up.  I was even 4 days late.

I will try to get on here more but being home with Nolan makes it hard.  I am on Facebook, you can look me up: Jennifer Bradley Arbogash, and request me as a friend. I tend to be on there quite a bit.

[russell12170]

I'm so glad to hear from you. I've been wondering about you. I asked Ashley if he's heard from you at all. I talk to her on Myspace. I'm a Myspacer....not on Facebook. Nobody I know is on there.
Wish you the best of luck and much prayers in TTC. I hope it happens soon for you.
We are not officially TTC since we were told to wait but I'm also not preventing either.  It took 6 months to conceive the one we lost so I doubt it will happen quickly. And besides, I didn't need a D&C this time so I should be ok if by some slim chance it happens.
Please don't be a stranger. I was worried about you.