I wanted to say that I lost my baby at 38 wks due to placenta abruption.
I went through the normal stages of grief, almost repeatedly.
Then a few weeks ago God spoke to me through my husband and church.
He told me to let Tate go. That he was already in the arms of God, why should I hold on to all the pain and questions? Why should I wonder what could be done differently, what can I do now? Nothing will ever bring him back. I don't want him back, I want to be with him. But by my anger, I wasn't looking at how blessed I am, how wonderful God has blessed me. I have so many things. And I have the promise that I will see him again.
Well, by letting all that go, I have been so suprised!!!! I feel closer to my baby Tate than ever before! Like he is right here with me. Like he and I are at peace. This may sound weird, but I pray that if anyone is hurting and feeling guilt and pain, that God will help you let that all go, that you may experience the closeness that God has in store for you.
God will show you things you never thought you could feel through such a heartbreaking experience!
May God bless you all.
Lisa
