I have about 6 pages in his scrapbook finished and it is so pretty! I also covered the outside and inside pages. It has been tough, but it looks great. Still alot to go.
I made the flower by going to the Michaels craft store and buying a vase that sticks in the ground, the styrofoam cone that goes in it and the flowers I wanted. You can be real creative and get bows and things too. Then you just sort the flowers by where you want to be, I helpd them in my hands in different poses until I found the one I liked and then you just cut the stems to fit it the right places and stick them in the foam. There is an ***ociate there that can help in most craft stores. I made Tate's with each color of the new bright colors, it was soooo beautiful, and it was for my beautiful baby. It may have costed less and big bigger if I had just bought it already made, but it was really comforting to make it for him. When you have a baby you have to spend time with it, nurture it, love it and show it your love, this helped me feel like I was still his mommy and loving him and taking care of him. It was really great. I need to go and do a fall one now, fall is my favorite.
I know what you mean about sleep, it is hard and when you lay down to go to sleep, you usually think alot. What helps me is to just talk to God about it all. He just takes all that I am thinking and keeps it for me, so it doesn't keep running over and over in my mind. Also I use Tylenol PM. It helps too.
I will continue to pray for you, I hate that we have to share this pain, but we still have our babies, just in Heaven. I was thinking the other day. Tate will never be heartbroken, he can never experience the pain I feel. No matter what, he will always be with Jesus! Nothing can ever hurt him, make him sick or be mean to him. I know that doesn't help alot, but for me, it is a GIFT from God, that He loves my son more than I could ever comprehend and Tate is in HIS care FOREVER! That makes me smile.
God bless, and keep in touch,
